First my
husband and I were told I could be discharged on July 21.
Then I was told it was not to be the case. Whether I was lied to in
the first instance is not for sure, but something was strange. My
liaison Nina with Mental Health Partners told me I did not have to
make an appointment with a therapist as I felt I had been very well
served in that area for nearly 25 years. But then the social worker
said I would not be discharged unless I promised to go these
appointments. She and Nina finally worked it out and I was
discharged the next day. How did I achieve discharge?
Then I was told it was not to be the case. Whether I was lied to in
the first instance is not for sure, but something was strange. My
liaison Nina with Mental Health Partners told me I did not have to
make an appointment with a therapist as I felt I had been very well
served in that area for nearly 25 years. But then the social worker
said I would not be discharged unless I promised to go these
appointments. She and Nina finally worked it out and I was
discharged the next day. How did I achieve discharge?
The fact is,
I knew I was still manic and indeed the next day after
discharge I went to Dr. Rosenthal and I volunteered to take the
following medications: 300 mg Seroquel, 35 mg Lithium orotate,
150 mg Lithium carbonate, 240 mg Verapamil plus as needed .5mg
Clonazapem. Yes, I have been willingly taking these heavy hitters,
more drugs than in the unit because I believe that for the time
being, they are just what I need.
discharge I went to Dr. Rosenthal and I volunteered to take the
following medications: 300 mg Seroquel, 35 mg Lithium orotate,
150 mg Lithium carbonate, 240 mg Verapamil plus as needed .5mg
Clonazapem. Yes, I have been willingly taking these heavy hitters,
more drugs than in the unit because I believe that for the time
being, they are just what I need.
I knew that
in order to be discharged so I could get on the right
meds before it was too late, I had to pull a reverse Nelly Bly (about
her, see this post). With support from my husband and a co-patient I imagined it was already the most sorrowful day of the Jewish year,
Tisha b’Av. I dressed in black. I put my unruly hair up in a neat
bun. I applied conditioner to my hair and eyebrows. I stood
differently. I walked more slowly.
I spoke less. I was extra appreciative of staff. I got discharged
despite being manic. Years of teaching safely while moody had
turned me into a better actress than I thought I was. Yet the extra
day of discharge was worthwhile. Because of this extra day I
witnessed the instance of the violent patient that I can now share
with the world at large. For this I am grateful. If I can help a single
patient being tortured by this unit, my stay will not have been in
vain.
meds before it was too late, I had to pull a reverse Nelly Bly (about
her, see this post). With support from my husband and a co-patient I imagined it was already the most sorrowful day of the Jewish year,
Tisha b’Av. I dressed in black. I put my unruly hair up in a neat
bun. I applied conditioner to my hair and eyebrows. I stood
differently. I walked more slowly.
I spoke less. I was extra appreciative of staff. I got discharged
despite being manic. Years of teaching safely while moody had
turned me into a better actress than I thought I was. Yet the extra
day of discharge was worthwhile. Because of this extra day I
witnessed the instance of the violent patient that I can now share
with the world at large. For this I am grateful. If I can help a single
patient being tortured by this unit, my stay will not have been in
vain.
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